Military Wives

We are Military Wives.

We don't care where the orders send him, as long as we can follow.  

We make life long friends in hours. 

We swell with pride when he puts on his uniform. 

We feel our hearts break when he comes home with deployment orders. 

We stay strong for our men, our children, our families & his.

We cry only when the doors are closed, the laundry done and the children in bed. 

We cry only when the world cannot see. 

We hide our aching hearts when people ask how we are, and hold our heads high when we want to crumble. 

We tell ourselves that everything is ok, even though he hasn't called in 3 weeks. 

Our husbands have a call to duty and so do we. 

He protects the country with his strength, his honor, and his life.  

We protect the home front with our strength, our pride and our tears. 

Our Growing Family

   As I mentioned in my first post, we are expecting our second baby girl in January. We both want a big family and are excited to see it grow. Although it gets frustrating, we enjoy being parents so much!      
   However, I am definitely starting to freak out about having another baby. I have absolutely no idea how I'm going to juggle two children. I know, I know. Two is not that many and women juggle more kids than that every day with no problem. I myself have multiple friends with 4 children. I think I'm just in the same spot I was when our first was born. I'm back in the 'my-world-is-fixing-to-be-turned-upside-down-and-I-have-no-idea-what-to-do' spot. This time will be so different for multiple reasons. The first one is obvious, I will now have to juggle 2 children instead of one. The second, is my Kyle will be home. The third, is that I honestly cannot remember what I did when Paige was a newborn. I can remember that I barely made it through Paige's newborn phase. I honestly don't know if that was just because I was depressed or for some other reason. All I can remember about that part of her life is how miserable and hard it was. I can't think about it without crying. Is having a newborn really that hard or was it that way only because of Kyle's deployment? Was it that way because he left when she was barely 7 days old and I've never hurt so bad in my life? If it really is that hard, I can honestly say that I'm terrified to do it again. My Kyle won't be able to help me at night because he has to work and my Mom isn't here. I have absolutely no doubt that she will come help me but all of it still falls on me.  I don't remember what to do with a newborn. I even have pictures of Paige when she was tiny and I don't remember what was going on. Trust me, that's not because it was so 'long' ago. I feel like I'm having my first baby all over again and I'm as clueless as I was before.
   However, I am a very determined Momma and I have a mighty God. I have no idea how we will adjust to a new baby but I know that we will. This is the first time that we've done it together and it will certainly be an adventure!